Hello World.

I have several essays in progress. One of them is an essay about my intentions to write. But that has become an essay of its own. Today, I want to say something about dualism.

It bothers me when writers contrast the conceptual mind, the ego, from the non-conceptual body awareness. They make much ado about words and definitions, ironically being rather conceptual. They say that the Western mind is so far-gone that the only way out of its illusory dualism is to gradually reintroduce it to nondualism, like some kind of caged animal. We have to re-encounter the body, the self, that is free from opinions and judgments, knowledge and thinking, worrying and desire. We must be integrated in a holistic manner, such that the indigenous wisdom of the earth-centered spiritualities can reignite our lives with healthy behavior.

Why not just start from the principle that the structures used in the compulsive nature and the structures used in the harmonious nature are one self? Rather than creating a bunch of hoops to jump through, a giant game to wear out the compulsive nature, why not just assert the truth from the beginning, instead of lying to people about some division between knowing and knowingness, as if becoming aware of how things actually are is different from knowing? I’m not even splitting hairs here, that’s their own language! What the hell is the difference between “knowing” and “knowingness?” “Oh, you silly westerner! You do not understand the intuition of the sages of the ages.” “Oh, you silly orientalist! You do not notice your avoidance tactics!”

My path of spirituality has yielded the magic fruits, just as theirs. So why am I automatically invalidated the moment I try to say a word? How uncompassionate! They profess the tantra of all things being valid, and then they make one profane path, the path of conceptual awareness. Well guess what. My path is the tantra of togetherness between the so-called “conceptual mind” and “non-conceptual awareness.” There is an angle from which, truthfully, discrete knowledge and subtle awareness are two of a kind, thinking and feeling are two of a kind, mind and body are two of a kind, self and other are two of a kind, phenomena and noumena are two of a kind, etc.

I keep dredging up the wisdom from those warped dogmatists. It is not the presuppositions, per se. It is the attitude with which they are wielded. In this way, perhaps, I am a semitic, a hebrew even. Count me among the heretics, the magicians, and I will shine like Newton’s light. Rational magic. Magical reason. Reason-magic. Something else we lack a word for. The eye itself. The subjectivity of the individual and the species and the world and the cosmos, all convolved in degrees, like branches of a tree. It is easier to plum to the branching nodes, the common phases of ancestral consciousness, for memory is stored diffusely in physical objects. Physical objectivity is just what we call the world available to sensory awareness and measurement thereby, or vice versa. What is beyond the physical world is not something antithetical to rational, scientific principles. Rather it is just outside it. Imagine something behaving erratically and regularly. Something you can’t categorize as chaotic or orderly. Something, or someone, you find it difficult to understand cohesively. And what if that person or thing exuded a harmoniousness, the makings of music, and even musicality itself? What would you call that thing that is not defined or undefined? If you struggle to identify a necessary category, struggle to see if it can be or can’t be classified, then maybe what you’re dealing with is actually isomorphic, autochthonic, with your awareness? It’s like trying to see your own eye. If you keep oscillating, maybe you’re looking at yourself. Or something of the same kind as yourself.


Gorda, California
May 27, 2022